feelings.
When I was younger I knew something was different about me. I often felt like I was living in a bubble. I had friends but when I was with them, it always felt like there was a them and a me . Sometimes it felt like there was a glass wall in between. Out of the blue, sounds would become distorted and everything was over defined. It was like a switch had been flipped. Like going from a regular TV channel to an HD one. Sometimes my chest would become tight and it was like all the air was being sucked out of my lungs. I only recently learned the term for this experience. Derealization . I have experienced this throughout my life and because of it I put up walls to protect myself. I used to think that feeling depressed was the worst thing in the world. I forced myself to push the emotions away. I now realize that the worst feeling in the world is not being able to feel at all. I began to mimic the way other people felt and acted. If something sad happened, I would be sad . But similarl...